Sometimes when I read my older posts I hate myself haha. I have been really stressed the past couple of days and it is only four days into the semester. I don't want Lizzie and Elda to transfer next year. Thinking about it makes me want to cry. I feel trapped by the nursing program and the limitations it creates for transferring other places. I can't even think right now because my brain really really hurts. I want to be some place else with new people and fun things to do, but I also want to do my best here and say fuck you to everyone around me. My hope is to get an apartment with Lizzie, but she seems much less excited about it than me. I don't want to be screwed next semester and wind up here all by my self surrounded by the cliques that don't have room for me in them. God, I feel like I am in high school again. I don't know what to do or what my next step is. I am going to try and join a couple clubs or something and meet new people, but I feel so out of my comfort zone here. I have so much hope for progression but I continually find myself hiding. Blah. Bad day.