My Mom just came frantically running into my room looking for "her" lotion. I say "her" because I bought it, and it has been in my room, used by me everyday for 5 weeks or so. She stole it 3 days ago, then thought buying me a new one half the size for college was a fair trade. I took the lotion back into my room yesterday after our high tension shop and hid it in my empty top drawer of my dresser. It makes since that I took it back, doesn't it? I paid for it. I pay for all of my "personal items." It is mine. Apparently she isn't aware of that because it is 6:00 am, and she woke me up 20 minutes earlier than I needed to wake up, that bitch! Don't worry, I don't mean that.

Yesterday I started to feel the excitement for college bubbling up in my stomach. I am overwhelmed with it. I have so much to do before I leave, in every sense. I need time for friends, family, packing, buying new everything, and I only have six days. How can I possibly spread it all out evenly? At this point that's the only thing concerning me. That I am going to leave things behind so frantically that I won't give the goodbye that I want. I just wish time would slow down a little, not to avoid my impending new surroundings, but to make the transition easier. It will be hard leaving behind all of the special relationships that I have with people, knowing that it took us all this long to form them. For now, though, I am just enjoying all there is to enjoy from them. What much more could you want than happiness? It's human nature to search for it, whether we are aware of it or not.

Time to get in the shower and work all day. I hope it rains so I can have a movie-day with the kids and not feel guilty about it.