This is the first day I have been emotional about leaving. It's really hitting me hard right now. (Kathryn would say that's what she said.) I was fine all day, due to the fact I was asleep for the majority of it, most likely. It started while sitting by the fire at Parker's party. It was a brief, but full blown realization like a blip on a radar screen when something is soon to be discovered but disappears moments later. I forgot about it until I got home and settled into my bed with my laptop and iPod and listened to this, revealing an volcanic emotional eruption.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NjPJMnLCStA&feature=related


"Today we're younger than we're ever gonna be."

This time in my life is supposed to be the most amazing and fun in a lot of senses, and it really has been. I can't remember a time where I was enjoying myself more. So on one hand it can be seen as though now is the peak and we need to spend our time wisely doing crazy things because we're all only getting older. Whereas it can also been seen as just the beginning and sure I'm the younger now than I'll ever be again, but I have so much more to look forward to. i don't feel ready enough to accept that I am going to get real old real soon. I don't want to leave behind everything that means so much to me right now. I wonder if it will even be possible to feel at peace knowing what there is to know. Thankfully this will be a fleeting feeling until next time there's a bleep on the radar and we all find ourselves ready to move on ....